Well, I found out that my grandma has a blood clot in her femoral artery....... :^( They are unsure if they can do anything for her just yet. Some tests have to be run to see if a stint will help. I can handle a lot of things but haven't ever considered steeling myself for this... I should have expected something to happen though, simply because they go in threes in my blood line. Buried my Great Aunt whom I was very close to. I used to sit with her and care for her (Alzhiemers and some other… Continue

I just turned in my first application for a private ambulance company! I'd rather work for one of those than my current full time job... I'm sick of the bullshit that goes on in that damn group home. It's always a constant power struggle and is fully staffed by women except for the one 62 yr old man. Can you say estrogen ocean??? These women are constantly gossiping, and backstabbing each other. I try to maintain a low profile because I'm there for one reason and one reason only. To care for… Continue

The training was so great! It's really something to see a firefighter down and being dragged out of house, none the less one of your departments own. It really rocks you to the core and makes everything seem surreal. All the videos and movies I've seen have taken on a new light for me. Granted it was training only, it all seemed so real once we got beyond the shit shooting and got down to bussiness. I know that this what I want, and I'll push my way through the rough patchs that will come and… Continue

Our dept is smoking a house tomorrow at 9a.m. It'll be my first training exercise! I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. We're doing it to get some practice and brush up on some things we don't do a lot. Also I'm going to learn to spike the bag for our Medics... Have no clue how. I've gotta work my paid job tonight and that sucks. But what can you do???? Argh I just wanna work EMS and EMS only. Have no clue where to start in doing that. So if anyone who knows how to guide me in that… Continue

I talked to my Asst. Chief yesterday and have decided it's about time for me to now get my fire card. AHHHH!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited. I love this work so much! It's my driving force to be the best possible person I can. I've NEVER wanted to or have considered doing anything for as long as I can remember. My mom lovingly recalls a younger diapered version of me running to the windows every time emergency vehicles drive by yelling "Cruck mommy CRUCK!!!" LOL She is scared to death of me getting… Continue