Maybe its the raging hormones, maybe it's just me. But I'm feeling very unlike myself. I just wanna cry. Life has been so full of curveballs. One right after the other, and I always stay strong and hold my head high. I try not to show that anything is bothering me, and the times I do express it, it blows up in my face. It seems to me the only thing keeping me going right now is the baby I'm carrying. Feeling it's little flutters bring a smile to my face, despite the circumstances I do love this child more than life itself. I'm determined to create a FANTASTIC life for my baby. Even if that means doing it completly on my OWN. I guess my saddness is a normal part of these circumstances, and I just needed to let it out. And in case I didn't say in my last blog about this the names I've picked out are GIRL) Dana Grace BOY) Dyllan James. I have the ultrasound this month to learn the gender.