Wow I was just thinking its time for my medic shift again, seems like only yesterday I was on the medic. maybe thats cause we had a call on Saturday that I got pulled from the engine to drive the medic, and of course the patient coded on us. the wild thing and then unfourtunate was that the Hospital got em back but later passed on. My mind this past weekend has just been going crazy, I couldn't sleep last night, had to many things on my mind, when it comes to my wifes teens, If I try to interject on what and how they are acting its like I am trying to murder them or something. All I am trying to do is to get them to be more responsible, to which they are far from it, and I keep telling my wife it seems like they are the ones running the house half the time and not us. My step son screwed up earlier and I have been trying to get him to straighten up but he and now his fiance are expecting next month. I try to tell him he needs to be working more than he has and to maybe even get a second job, the one he has now only has him working less than 20 hrs a week but he will not do it. Can not raise a kid on those hours and I sure as hell am not taking up his slack an paying for stuff the baby needs. My wife told me during the dinner Saturday night that one time she was mad at me and complaining in front of her teens, and that also got me to thinking, that maybe thats why the don't listen to me much, try to let em know why the ones always got stomach problems and still they don't listen. I don't know maybe I am overreacting on some of this, I try to let things slide but it just grinds on me, I try to have things really nice and its like they don't care. Then there is one of our brothers last night on a couple of calls we assisted the medic with, had one the squad leader needed a blanket for a kid and when I tried to get it he yanked it out of my hand, the other call which was an MVA we had the guy backboarded and I thought they had the belts on the board already fastened and I was securing the head with the CID pads and strap and he yanked it off saying that was the last to be secured after the belts well excuse me they had 3 guys on the torso and if they didn't have him strapped in the time it took me to place the pads and strap then there is omething wrong there. The bad thing is this brother is an officer, and everyone knows he has a bad attitude when he works medic or fire. the other brother works at my station, on the same MVA he jumped up in the cab and said I am putting on the vest, I advised that me and the other guy put them on since we run medic and he said I don't care I'm putting it on, typical rookie, I just hope when he screws up we can either save his butt or straighten things up without harm to a civillian. GOD I hate rambling on like this, maybe tonight would be a good night to just call in sick, but then I would feel like I could have done something to help someone out, so I will not call in sick. I guess I am just venting and hopefully this will all pass. until my next blog be safe Brothers and Sisters.