Wouldn't ya know it?

Wouldn't you know I would be diagnosed with a disorder that is represented by the color purple and who's name means wolf. Two of my favorite things are linked to this disorder that could very well reap havoc in my life. Two of my favorite things are connected to this disorder that is already starting to take away my dreams.

I have SLE or as it is more commonly known, Lupus. If you don't know, it is an Auto Immune Disorder which means the immune system cannot tell the difference between foreign substances and its own cells and tissues. The immune system then makes antibodies directed against itself. So in English, my body is attacking itself and there is no cure.

This is treated symptom by symptom and these can be very mild with very few "flare ups" and long periods of "remission" to very severe symptoms such as seizures and death. I am in the mild class with simple easy to treat symptoms right now. The bad news is this is a progressive disorder and no one can tell me what to expect next or how soon if at all it will progress. The disorder effects everyone differently.

This said, my dream of returning to the Fire Dept is now gone. Two things I must avoid are stress and over exerting myself both of which are requirements to fight fire. This is very hard for me to admit or accept right now because I have always said I would be back.

How does someone like me slow down? I never get sick. I am always on the run with the kids or just on the go. Arbonne Party here, holiday party there, birthday party somewhere else, 2 baseball games in 2 different places at the same time.... this is my crazy hectic life and I LOVE IT THIS WAY! How do I slow down?

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