I started my five shift mentorship last night. Its part of the process for me to clear as a riding out of class lieutenant. Even though I've spent the last year going to class and learning all the things that I have, I still wasn't ready for the moment when I had to put my gear in the front right seat of the truck.

As I stood outside, the truck grew about ten feet taller. I guess I felt the same way when I first started riding out of class as an engineer. It was that moment when it finally dawned on me that I would have to step outside of my comfort zone and face the unknown. Well, I don't like doing that. Not one bit. Nope, I am happy in my personal zone with all its dusty little corners. In my heart, I know that I can't stay locked up forever. Theres that little internal drive that pokes at my brain while saying 'you can do more'. Some days I love that motivation. Some days I'd love nothing more then to beat it with a stick.

Everyone was supportive, a few made fun and laughed with me at my mistakes. I guess I kind of feel like this is the beginning of an end. I'm stepping into a new realm that requires more of me. It ain't going to be easy, thats for certain.

...but, you know what? I love a challenge.