Notes from a Rookie Firefighter...May 23, 2010

It has been really quiet in terms of calls in the last two weeks. It seems that politics has made its way into so many places in our township, and just like a snake, is lifting its head up in places you don't expect it. Yes, our department and others. Cut-backs and budgets are to blame but what I don't understand is the need to sacrifice safety for dollars. I cannot comment more on this right now.

I am a bit frustrated that I cannot freely post on this blog anymore. It has been found by people other than my friends at Firefighternation. And for someone who has a small voice, it seems that if what I write hits the target I get my hand slapped.

But that's the yuck stuff. Here's the good stuff:

I saw my daughter yesterday and she looked good but a little odd...I sat there in my 30 minutes of asking a million questions hoping and praying that this time something will click and I will not be down there same road I was before. Interestingly enough, each time this happens I get stronger and stronger, most likely from the people that have given me strength and advice during the way. Most recently was my friend, James, who I knew back when I was...I think 7. In my life for a short time this time, he gave me a perspective on life situations that I didn't gleam from my last 'been there around the block' friend, Joan. I don't understand how at 48 I am still naive enough to think I can change things. They have helped me see that I can't.

Here's a photo:

On a final note, I had a harrowing experience this week. Someone found me on a dating website, which I had put myself on after breaking up with my boyfriend and feeling all torchy. This person googled my first name and found this site, and then proceeded to seep into every place I have something posted...even asking business associates to link to me. I was horrified. Simply horrified. Well, characteristically I sat down and proceeded to destroy some of my sites including the dating website. I just wanted to let you guys know that I felt like I was being computer stalked and was so distressed about it I threatened to report this person. I felt that I was exposed when a complete stranger mentioned things I've posted here. I think he probably was just over zealous and didn't mean any harm, but to someone like me, I was literally shaking in my boots. Note to self: go back to plan number 1 that God will make someone just drop from Heaven at my doorstep, LOL.

That's all from the rookie firefighter today. My job is great, but hard, and I have also decided I need to be less techi and more 'me.' So yesterday I went strawberry picking, made preserves last night til midnight, and today am going to pull out tree roots for a friend.

Have a wonderful week everyone!!!!!

The Rookie Firefighter