Well these past few weeks have proven to be exhausting for Eric as well as myself. It is insane that we are now in week 6. It is going much faster then I would have imagined. It is nice to see him happy and smiling and knowing that he has finally found the job that he has been searching for , for a long time.

Going through this academy is something that I was often sure would end our marriage, being as it is that we are going through some other personal things. I didn't think that the distance and my having to be alone for such a long period of time. I even told him that I belived if he did this it would be the end. Something I didn't want to face.

Now six weeks later, and with only 8 to go, we are just about on the other side of this whole thing. I am happy to say that whereas I believed this would be the end, it is showing me that it is only the beginning of our marriage. With his being happier where he is in his life right now, I am finding that I am happy to be standing there right next to him. I wasn't sure if I could be a firemans wife . The idea of losing him when our life has only just started together, with our kids losing their father, was too much to cope with. I have realized though that , yes, my husband has chose a job that will increase the chances of something bad happening, but life is something that you cannot ever predict. Anything could happen in any instance. I am hopeful and I have a better feeling now then I once did. I trust that the people he will be working with , will want to protect him as much as I do. Even if it is just because it's their job. I have to believe it'll be ok, I will take everyday and I will enjoy it and take it slow. He is someone I never want to live without.

Good Luck baby! You'll be amazing.