I see it wasnt my time last night, I awoke to find another day here, with my kids and wife. But I sometimes wonder Y i was put here? Is it a joke am I suposed to give up my job because of all my medical issues im having? It has been a tough life mdeicaly speaking, I was one of those kids who stayed out of troubble never smpked, drank or did drugs. So I thought I would be rewarded some how. God seems to be a comedian when it came to me. I ended up fighting cancer out of High School. then contracted Guliian' Barret. This left me in the hospital for a month and caused permanent nueropathy theough out my body. After working a while the final prank was thrust upon mw kiddney failure, but oh no Im not on diyalysis yet, no no, Im in end stage renal failue so I have to wait for my kidneys to fail completely b4 i can get a transplant or diyalsis. But i cant work because my kidneys work at 5% and they are in soo much pain i have to take pain killers 1ce a day if noo 2ce. But as long as my kids are happy and the wife has no complaints I gues im doing fine.